Today’s guest
blog is by Robert Pobi whose debut novel Bloodman
was recently published.
Now that Bloodman is hitting the shelves (in
atoms and bits), the questions have started. I find them unsettling. Surreal in
a way. Years of isolation taught me a certain independence – I used to live on
very little in the way of encouragement. I wrote. The novels got built. The
drawer got fed. End of story. I never really discussed my work because no one
was interested. Then I sent Bloodman
out into the world.
All of a
sudden I have become interesting. People want to know about what I do. Where I
get my ideas. Why I write what I write. What my favorite food is. I am asked to
do blogs, interviews, answer questions about a process I am not quite sure I
understand and am even less confident I can explain. In a way, it’s something
that isn’t that complicated: I sit at my desk, open my head, and after a finite
number of decisions, I have a novel.
The first
time I let Bloodman out to play was
at a tavern on the fringe of SoHo. We had a table in a quiet corner – something
I have learned to negotiate since I blew out a good chunk of my hearing in a
handgun accident. Cocktails ran sixteen bucks a crack and they had foie gras thrown
on everything in sight. Between rounds of their cheapest most inferior booze,
my agent asked if I was working on anything new. I nodded. Gave her a few
sentences. Some character traits. Maybe a scene or two. When I had finished she
just stared at me for a while. I could see the gears grinding around behind her
eyeballs. She finally shook her head and asked me where I come up with this
stuff.
Where did Bloodman come from? The kneejerk answer
is that I don’t know. If I think about the question a little bit, I start to wonder
if maybe it has always been there, buried somewhere in the static in my head.
The truth is I have been writing for a long time – a lot of books in a lot of
years – and I have learned that the secret to a good book is in the decisions. That
first answer is partially true, of course – I don’t really know where the idea
came from. In a way I never do. All I know is that there are more than enough. Everywhere.
All the time. And if you are going to be a writer, you have to learn to make
decisions on which ones to follow and which ones to leave in the ditch.
The crime
novel is well-trodden ground – hallow to some. And fertile. What could I bring
to it that hadn’t been done before? Cormac McCarthy nailed it when he said the
ugly fact is books are made out of books. There are a finite number of basic
story lines when it comes to the novel – only one if you narrow ancestry to
Robinson Crusoe. So it’s been covered. More than once. But you know what? No
one had written the crime novel I had always wanted to read. And it seemed like
the kind of place where I could open up the throttle.
I wanted to
bring something new to the genre – something that resonated – something that
was my own. I’ve read a lot of crime novels and by extension I’ve read a lot of
novels that focus on serial killers. But I’ve never read the book that dealt
with all the things I wanted to see in one place. The book that cranked the
dial to eleven and kept it there. I wanted to write my crime novel.
The only
thing that a writer can bring to the table that no one else has is his – or her
– voice. That voice is the only tool we have to fall back on. Everything else
is just fancy footwork. The talent is in the telling. Like the man said, books
are built out of books. It’s not about doing something new – it’s about
building on what has gone before. It’s the keystone of writing. A lot of Bloodman’s bearing walls were built out
of books that other people have written. Again, I had decisions to make. All
writers do. And we get to learn from the blood of others.
The only real
challenge in writing Bloodman was
figuring out which tried and true elements I could make my own. It was a dark and stormy night has
become clichéd. Why? Because it’s been there forever. Nothing loses impact with
lightning strikes - it’s been working since Macbeth. So I ripped it off. And
turned it into a Category 5 hurricane bearing down on my characters. Damaged protagonist?
I could start a list of broken literary loners and never finish it. But no one
has written him like I did – that sonofabitch is mine. Abusive alcoholic artist? Read it a thousand times. Maybe
more. Mine paints in his own blood. See what I’m getting at? This stuff has
been around for ages. The trick is making it your own.
I used to plan.
Outline. I’d start off with a beach house on Long Island where a family out of
central casting spent their time. Wrote a dog into the narrative. Made the
father a painter. Gave the mother a vintage convertible. Everything read like a
big happy smile. Problem with me is that it wouldn’t last past the second
paragraph – just when I started to lay down the tracks according to the
outline, my characters went screaming off the page in search of something else.
So I don’t outline any more. Or plan. I just fire up the prose machine and sit
back to see what happens. You’d be surprised at the things I’ve seen happen.
Bloodman was built in 110 days.
If I compare the first draft to the final edit, the foundation was there from
the beginning. I’ve written enough now that I trust the voice to be there for
me. To help me with the choices. He tells me when I’m trying too hard and
bitches at me if I start believing my own crap. If I get too cute, he’ll kick
the chair out from under me. He’s a bit of a prick but he does his job and if I
listen to him, I get to do mine. Everything works out well.
Whenever I
hear a writer say that it isn’t a job, it’s a vocation; I slap him (or her) and
try not to spill my drink in the process. Vocation? That’s a load. The reason
we write – at least the reason I
write – is pretty simple. To get there, I have to go through a few of the
reasons I don’t write.
Money? If
someone starts to write because of the money, it doesn’t last long. It takes
years to get this ship into the air. You have to learn your chops (although
self-publishing is rapidly changing that). You have to develop good work habits.
And you have to be relentless. If money is your motivator, it’s hard to develop
good work habits and keep at it when no one is paying you. Trust me that gets
old real fast. When a writer starts making money, it’s usually at the point
that they’d keep doing it for nothing – it’s become a part of them.
Fame? If you
put five of the five top-earning writers on the planet in a line-up, how many
could you identify? Exactly. Fame is not coming to this gig.
Do we do it to
travel and meet interesting people? I was hanging out with interesting people
before I was writing full time. Now that I do this, I get out a lot less.
Never, some of my friends would say. Travel? I’ve seen a lot of hotel rooms in
the past year. A lot of lunches and dinners. But sitting on a beach chilling
out? No time. Too much work to do. A book a year doesn’t sound like much until
you add in all the business that has to be done in the name of the game. I used
to spend 100% of my work time writing. Now that the book is out there, 50% or
maybe even 60% of my day is taken up with business. Interviews. Blogs. Guest
blogs. Mailings. Email. Agents. Editors. Publicity people. Marketing. Phone
interviews. Radio interviews. Skype interviews. Newspapers. Updating the
website. It’s endless.
So it’s not a
vocation. It’s not about money, or fame, or traveling to exotic locales. It’s
not about wearing tweed jackets or the free booze at book signings. So why do I
write?
Because it’s
fun.
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