Vertigo. U2 sang about it. We know what it is – that weird sensation of motion, a spinning or tilting feeling, where it feels like you or the world around you is moving even though you’re standing still. Vertigo plays a part in my latest novel All Of Them Lied – and not only in the story itself – but also in reality. Because though it’s my fourth book, this story is actually my first standalone novel. To write it was both liberating and terrifying. The blank page really was blank. None of my Garda friends from the Shaw and Darmody series could pop in to say hi. No catching up with their family dramas, their infighting and bickering. No hanging out with the lads from the Divisional Detective Unit. So even to write this story was to experience that strange, exposed, dizzying feeling.
And as for the idea behind the story? Vertigo is there too. As writers, we are programmed to ask the What if question. It’s often the tiniest spark of curiosity, wonder, or just plain nosiness which will ignite the fire of creativity. And don’t we all just pray that there’s enough fuel to sustain our 80,000+ words? In my case, the What if question that brought All Of Them Lied into being was helpfully provided by the man to whom I am (still) married, who I’ll call Hiking Husband.
The set up was as follows. The year was 2018. After many months of juggling elder family caring schedules and the emptying of the nest, a holiday beckoned, and we decided to go on a self-guided hiking trip in northern Italy. (The cold part.) In planning the holiday you were able to choose which level of difficulty you would be most comfortable with. As we prided ourselves on reasonable fitness levels (and we were then still whippersnappers in our fifties) we chose level four out of a possible five. Do you suffer from vertigo was one of the questions on the information sheet. ‘No,’ said he. ‘No,’ said I.
The fourth day into our trek after a sustained climb, we veered steeply up through beech woods onto the main ridge. To our right the ground rose even higher, flanked by deciduous trees and the remains of an old Roman wall. To our left, an abyss. A ravine. A cliff. A long, dangerous drop or, rather a view down and down, impossibly far down past the tops of tall trees and beneath them, more tall trees, to a bright scribble of water at the bottom of the valley. We were on a path that was so narrow you had to walk in single file and watch carefully where you stepped. Even the idea of using the poles became terrifying because of the fear that you could inadvertently shove yourself over the side. The thought of your backpack catching against a branch and causing you to stumble was another nightmare.
Reader. It turned out that I did – I do – suffer from vertigo. Yes I know I’d signed a form saying I didn’t but now, here, I did. Hiking Husband hiked happily up ahead without a care in the world. He may have been humming. HHH? What the heck? Behind him, I began to experience all the symptoms of vertigo. My legs began to shake and my sweaty palms clutched the hiking poles for dear life. I counted my thumping heartbeats and narrowed my gaze to the path ahead of me, looking neither left nor right. Time stood still. I moved even slower. Eventually, HHH realised something was wrong. He frowned.
‘Let’s take a breather,’ he said. Then he pointed to the bottom of the cliff and said (to lighten the mood he later claimed) ‘What if you wanted to murder someone? Wouldn’t that be a great way to do it? No one would ever find out.’
The idea for my story took root on that day. (No, not a plan to dispatch a HHH.) The character of Thea – a wealthy young woman – talented, trusting, a little spoiled and protected, and therefore vulnerable. I wondered what if Thea went on a fun adventure with the people she loves most in the world, not knowing that one of them wanted her dead? What if she had an ‘accident’ that was meant to kill her, but didn’t?
And what if she remembered nothing of the accident? What if the accident had caused her to lose her most recent memories and she came back home to recuperate and rebuild her life with those same loved ones, not knowing who she could trust?
Because All Of Them Lied.
All of them Lied. By Gill Perdue (Penguin Books) Out Now
Thea wakes from a coma, having forgotten much of the recent past. As well as learning to walk again, she studies the list of ‘facts’ she keeps on her phone, hoping something will unlock her memory. Her top three facts are: I was in Italy I was with the people I love the most. I fell down a ravine and I’m lucky to be alive. But as Thea gets hazy glimpses of the lead-up to her fall, the facts stop adding up. Trapped at home in the middle of the Irish countryside, dependent on those who were on holiday with her – her fiancé, her brother, her sister-in-law and her best friend – terrifying questions surface: Was I pushed? Why are they lying? Who can I trust? As memories come tumbling back, Thea realises she is in race against time to figure things out – and that her life hangs in the balance.
More information about Gill Perdue and her books can be found on her website.
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